11:00 AM
Chaviva Gordon-Bennett
Sometimes, the mind wanders.
- Although I am an editor, I never edit my own work. I'm a write it, hand it in (or blog it) kind of person. This is probably not the best way to function, and it's gotten me into some amusing circumstances, without a doubt. But all I ask of you, my readers, is to forgive me my errors!
- Everyone keeps asking me whether I'm going to cover my hair after I'm married, and the answer, as I've said before, is YES! There are no sheitels in my immediate future, but there are definitely hats and scarves in the near future.
- Tuvia and I got a Wii. I'm hoping that, maybe, I'll get my workout on and look svelte and beautiful come wedding time.
- I recently have become completely obsessed with the show "Big Love." I mean, yes, it's about a very right-wing end of the old school of the LDS church, but it's got some damn fine acting and fascinating storylines. It does, however, make me wonder if there are any polygamy observers around the corner ...
- Last week in class, someone said the following, and I think it can stand on its own: "Jesus was a rabid Zionist." I'm rocking a huge grin, by the way.
- I think the iPad is a waste of time, money, and energy. And I think the name is absolutely RIDICULOUS.
My mind has been a'jumble in the past few weeks. I keep wanting to sit down and write hefty posts about Judaism and observance and how I feel sort of "floaty" these days, but it didn't happen. It hasn't happened. I'm not saying I feel a void, but what I am saying is that I feel a bank of air between myself and many of the things going on around me. It's weird, and it's uncomfortable. Also, it's difficult to put into words. As you can see.
At any rate, at least I have snow. Lots of snow. Snow makes me giddy, and it makes everything better.
3 comments:
I have DVDs of some Big Love shows, think they are from season two. Let me know if you want to borrow them.
I wish I had snow! So jealous. And enjoy your Wii! OK, I'm jealous of that too...
It's not surprising that you feel so out of sorts (a nice British phrase there for you). I'd think you were meshuggeneh if you didn't, all things considered.
I can't advise really, not ever having experienced the exact same things you are going through. But my mind is also ajumble right now, for different reasons. For me though, it's resulted in me cleaving extremely closely to my observance, upping the game quite a bit (albeit in different and possibly unexpected ways) and generally being very single-minded about the aspects my life I have determination over. As in, 'I'm doing this and you won't/can't stop me'.
I guess to an extent, you have to just go with the flow. Time will move on, things will happen, you will marry your bashert, you will cover your hair, your life will change once more. And you will overcome a great number of obstacles to get what you want/need.
Maybe after all of that, you can let the dust settle and get your head in place, as the new Mrs Tuvia - and be thankful that you don't have to 'endure' a long engagement, such as is the case for the majority of the USA and Britain these days!
Good Shabbes, Chavi. I hope you get back to some kind of normality soon.
rachel
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